I have this this dialogue worm in my head I can’t get rid of (16×08 spoilers)
so Carolina eventually tells Wash what’s been going on (”Carolina, are you okay?” “Am I okay?” “Yeah, I mean, you’ve been acting weird lately.”) and she tells him pretty much what she told Dr. Grey: how he’s always been the one to bounce back, the unbreakable one, the guy who pulls through everything, and she’s been afraid to tell him that he’s finally broken.
And maybe he’s quiet for a minute, some things in the past few months suddenly make sense, and he says, “Is that really what you think?”
And she’s ready for the worst. She’s prepared to comfort him, to get him through this, and it catches completely off guard when he gives her a small, sad, smile, like he’s wondering if she’s the one with brain damage, and he says, “Carolina, I’ve been broken for years.”
And she has no idea what to say to that
So he keeps talking like, “Carolina, I spent… I’m actually not sure how long I spent in a mental hospital. I got an article 12, I spent a couple weeks walking around with a sociopathic shell of my friend and killing pretty much everyone we saw, and now you’re worried about me? Because I forgot that I told you about my cat?” And he’s the one telling her “I’m gonna be fine.” (Not that he thinks he can run back into combat without making some new plans and fail-safes in case he starts doing something stupid, but, hey, now he’s got something to plan about)
And Carolina has no idea how to tell him that he just proved the “strongest freelancer rubber band” point, and she and five other dead assholes still owe North $70 about it.
and I’d gone into writing this as just a blurb for someone else to maybe expand on/run farther with (the idea that Wash is actually gonna take this whole short-term memory scramble issue in stride and thinks this whole “unbreakable Wash” thing is ridiculous “like, have you met me? yikes”. it’s not that he doesn’t break, he just puts himself back together. eventually. even as Carolina and the rest of us wanna just shake him (but don’t, his head’s got enough problems)) because I believe in the power of OPTIMISM and pulling yourself out of the angst by your freakin BOOSTRAPS and how everything’s gonna be okay because Washington is a money maker and they know it it always is
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